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生，四月的主题
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无论是在中华还是欧美，无论是在南方还是北方，四月都是真正的春季，莺回啼后树，草醒绿前庭，万物生机盎然。
春天原本是生命的表象。设想一下，如果抽去生命，所谓季节的变化就只剩下了温度的差异。
“天地之大德曰生”。易经里这样说。
四月，不仅有华人的清明节，纪念逝去的生命；还有西方的复活节，向往生命的永续。
曾经在某一年四月，在某诗坛主持过一届诗会，以“生”为题。诗友们交来的旧体诗词就有88首。诗友“落英”写了“清明忆亡友”，其中有这样几句，令我印象深刻，心有戚戚焉：
花谢怜香短，泉涸忆水清。颟顸看龟祖，熠耀是流星。
都说男儿有泪不轻弹，只缘未到伤心处。人生历程中，这样的“伤心处”是难免的。比如2008年5月14号，我反复读着这样一段CNN发自川北震区的新闻，泪如泉涌：
"Perhaps the most poignant experience came while we were talking to the local party secretary in Che Jia Va, who gave us directions and pointed out various landmarks -- all the while keeping a stoic face. The town was once home to 13,000 people, and 3,000 are still missing, he says. As he shows me the damage to his community, I ask how many have died. Tears flow down his cheeks, and he makes no effort to wipe them away. He says that as many as 500 are dead, including his parents, his wife and their two children.
"In the midst of his anguish, there is a call over his radio. He's needed again, and he runs off -- with apologies -- to go back to work."
那一年年底，当第一场冬雪落下的时候，传来了父亲去世的消息。不到4岁的儿子缠着我出去滚雪球、堆雪人。我无法向他解释，甚至不能在他面前流泪。五内俱焚，却在雪地上折腾了一上午，和儿子一起喊一起笑……
近些年，除了承受父亲去世的人生变故，还有数次不幸的消息触动过自己的心灵。不是诗人的我，悼念的诗作竟然也写过好几篇了。收拢一下，重贴在爱坛，权作清明一束香。
在写“生”的主题，却离不了死。还是再录一下诗友“万湖洲小金”在那次诗会上写的“感生”吧：
不恨生时短，恨难生一时。同生何有恨？相养自无迟。
后水念前浪，落花怜幼枝。谁能栖混沌，忘却世间悲。
后水念前浪，落花怜幼枝。谁能栖混沌，忘却世间悲。
